jade ⚢

recoverytwt/edtwt (harm reduction) ☆ 20 ☆ lesbian ☆ uk ☆ priv: @jadeyawns

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

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[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

Look, I wish I could say I am fully recovered. I’m nowhere near it. But FUCK ANOREXIA!!! I am so grateful that I asked for help when I did.

Just found out I got an 82 (1st) on my dissertation. If I hadn’t chosen to make changes, I wouldn’t have had the chance to finish uni

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

I hate the hot weather. How can I hide my body whilst also not boiling

[van 🪽 @dykeabs13]

hey so here are some gross things that come from starving yourself:

-teeth and nails turning yellow
-constipation
-organs literally rotting
-bad breath
-DEADLY farts
-peeing and shitting yourself
-and you know, dying

not very clean, is it?

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

Much I still care. I just want to be better but I don’t know how

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

God I hate how disordered my brain still is. A new hire at work said she was 5 foot tall and 45kg, and I automatically got triggered that she was lighter than me, and then went to the toilet and checked her bmi versus mine…

Like I know that’s not normal. It sucks how

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

Idk when I will feel ok. When I will stop hating my body. Hating that I crave chocolate. Feeling incredibly guilty for not going to the gym at the minute. I hate how miserable I am

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

Sometimes I think I’m doing better, and then sometimes I have a panic attack over having McDonald’s for dinner and realise I’m still fucked

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

Fml. Not been to the gym in almost a month because I’m so busy with uni. Finally locked in and lost some weight, only to then get a cold and be so exhausted with my diss to bingeing yesterday and today. Gunna gain sm weight I bet :/

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

@softlyanie You will get it back beautiful girl, trust me🫂

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

Thank god I don’t have any health checks now… because I don’t think they would be too happy that I dropped 1kg in two days…

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

@softlyanie You are such a beautiful human, inside and out. Thank you!! I need to keep pushing, for my degree & also so I don’t get taken off of my adhd meds!!x I hope you are doing okay, and please know you can message me on here or on Instagram whenever🫂

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

I’ve had 3 double vodka diet cokes and I’m so anxious about calories. I feel like I’m getting worse again and I hate how miserable I am. But I’m so fat I don’t deserve food freedom

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

How do I push myself when it feels so wrong. I feel massive. Like I shouldn’t gain more weight. I hate everything and I’m so scared I will be stuck in this mindset forever because no one will help me

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

I just feel so lost. I won’t have support from the ED team in a few months as I’m leaving uni. They all say I’m doing well despite how miserable I am, despite how I’ve stopped gaining weight. They keep saying to keep pushing myself but how

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

I hate my body. I hate that people can see what I look like. I hate that no one knows what I looked like at my lw because it was winter. I hate that I can’t be happy

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

Okay now I’m really worried I look horrific now

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

Like be honest, which looks better. Because I’m going insane. Genuinely feel like I’m just being suffocated by all the fat on my body now :(

[stocking of twt ★ @sweet_stockingg]

i keep seeing apple hate
rt if u love apples 😍😍❤❤❤❤❤

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

I have ruined myself🫠 it’s gunna take forever once I finish my degree to get back to where I was. I look disgusting now :(

BMI 15.7 ➡️ 19.5

I wasn’t even that underweight yet my health shat itself

[jade ⚢ @f4LS3R3ALITY]

I have ruined myself🫠 it’s gunna take forever once I finish my degree to get back to where I was. I look disgusting now :(

BMI 15.7 ➡️ 19.5

I wasn’t even that underweight yet my health shat itself