i’m having the most peaceful crashout of my life rn.. like i’m going insane, but also just chilling and vibing. i’m stressed about a bunch of stuff, but at the same time i’m not. i don't know how to explain it..
i’ve worked really hard to escape abuse and live my life by my own terms. having perfectionism cast onto you from childhood is so suffocating! these are my mistakes, my fuck ups, and my decisions! i decided i wanted a life, any life without being controlled and i always chase it.