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ed/vent acc ☆ failed recovery

[fang ⭒ @faerikcal]

osteoporosis from my ed back in my teens gave me a hump, i know going to gym is most likely the only way to fix it but im gonna relapse so bad if i do 😭😭

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and i have a man who makes me food everyday to make sure i eat :(

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i hate being "recovered" physically but having mental thoughts of relapsing every day.. its so tiring

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oh bm1 14 i miss u so bad

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biggest mistake is overusing energy drinks to the point my heart thinks its gonna die when i drink one 🤍 i cant take this energy drink celibacy anymore please

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tired of maintaining 48kg for two years now and acting like its my healthy weight time to get my act together and lose some more

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who couldve known that a tooth extraction would make me relapse so bad omg : D not eating and noone bats an eye! great just what i wanted

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@j3nnyst4r also i rlly like the top of my spinal column

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@j3nnyst4r the rib bones right below my chest </3

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only thing keeping me sane in this household 🤍

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very important pictures of my cats. enjoy

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i can't deal with the fucking ed thoughts in recovery on and off for 4 years now WHAT do you mean you have to live with it for the rest of your life : D

[fang ⭒ @faerikcal]

kind of embarrassing to have been struggling with an ed for 5 years now constantly relapsing and going back in circles. and the current skinny regression in media does not help 😭 why is every celebrity getting so thin now ????

[fang ⭒ @faerikcal]

@PinkOreoKcals helloo :( im so sorry ive been trying to not look at this twt as it does trigger me to an extent but i hope youre doing well too 🤍 youre so sweet!

[fang ⭒ @faerikcal]

the mirror in my house makes me look so short

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@skinnivibes i think it rlly depends on the rave culture where you live

[fang ⭒ @faerikcal]

@skinnivibes it really depends honestly omg ive met some living red flags while i went to raves but those who enjoy a good rave just going w their couple like my bf did then its cute <3

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theyre the only thing keeping me going

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my lil cats snuggling in between my legs

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its so humiliating to start losing weight again after recovery