Back at it again, fucking up every fucking relationship I had. What a perfect timing! Selfish fuck! How ironic that I want to have someone who would treat me right and then would treat them worse? Maybe I really am the fucking problem? What a waste of fucking life.
Thread of most Heart-Breaking Moments Right Before the Disaster Strikes β οΈπ§΅
(Don`t open if you are soft-hearted)
1. An Iranian man smiles as he is about to be executed by hanging from a crane.
Summary:
Gumastos si BJ ng six digits (80k for the studio alone) for the shoot. Top paid productions are also on board with the project with no talent fee cost. But the day before nag cancel team ni DJ. Up to this date, di nag reach out si ate gurl. Kahit sorry wala.
Why tf am I even here? I don't wanna be here. I thought di na ako madedepress ulit. I don't want this shit! FUCKING BASTARD. I DON'T WANNA LOVE NO MORE.
Am I really a bad person? Or I feel like ako ang tipo na walang pakiramdam. I feel nothing but sorrow. The pain is numbing me. I wanna cry so bad, out loud.
Habang tinitingnan ko yung mga Polaroid pics I took or bout myself, I'm sad about the thought na masaya ako na meron na akong memories na maiiwan when I die. Na nakangiti lang ako, looking like wala akong problema, walang tinatagong damdamin.
Pagod na ko. I'm tired of trying to understand the world and its inhabitants despite of its flaws. I don't know if I'll wake up tomorrow like parang hindi ako naiyak tonight.