@chaotictransfem I would deliberately avoid reproducing most of my life after the age of 10. Plus, with the knowledge I have now, I could easily put together that 2 mill by now.
apparently, when people suffer from severe mental illness
living calmly and peacefully" becomes their life's goal. Indeed, I've stopped aiming high for things like "I want to succeed in my career" or "I want to meet someone great," and instead, I've come to think, i just want to get through life from here on out without any more suffering
To be honest, I don’t know how to function in this world anymore. I’m having a really hard time being cordial and calm while at work when inside I’m boiling with a mixture of rage, fear, deep sorrow and disappointment. I don’t know how to find joy or hope. I don’t trust most people especially if they seem too happy or ignorant of what’s happening. I don’t know how to sleep enough. I just don’t know.