Nanami
I love you.
No matter how much I scream these 3 words nothing will change. it wont ever reach through the LCD screen you wont even hear it . Its a lost cause, you aren't real.
But My feeling is, grief is,thought of you is.
My memory is.
With all whats real i'll say: (+)
zayne is the single greatest thing to ever happen to people with a competence kink. like. he's so gifted he skips ahead of his peers, enters uni early, becomes the undisputed best in his field, publishes in the most prestigious medical journals, racks up awards until there's nowhere left to put them, becomes chief cardiac surgeon at 27, lectures at universities, still maintains a whole athletic life (separate thread we'd get to), can cook, has emotional intelligence, is the physical manifestation of responsibility and ethical integrity - and then he's also just the kind of smart where someone's life is in his hands and he's completely calm about it. and he can explain things and teach things and make you feel like you're the only person who matters while he's talking and-
we could genuinely write a dissertation on his competence and how he is a literally perfect being and still not say enough. and my personal competence kink loses it every time i see him in a suit or glasses or lecturing or just existing as a doctor
Btw, if you have an ex oomf who just doesn't seem to shut up about you, they're clearly being obsessed and manipulative towards you and it's also a red flag.
god i love and adore zayne so much hes everything to me hes in mind constantly like hes there when i wake up and when im doing literally anything thank u lord for making me a zayne main its one of the best things that ever happened to me thank u
Truly .Once you are sure where your heart always was , just let go .You will see a crashout,a retelling & be the bad THEY got rid of.
It's time you know the truth that you got rid of them first,Let their ego talk to make them feel better
You let go & stopped caring for a reason.