vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt

… literally Ryūnosuke Akutagawa.. pl/eng/rus

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

Intro post!

Ryū 𓋹 he/him
Akutagawa Ryūnosuke in the flesh
failing anorexic >ᵥ_ᵥ< I slit and cry here

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

I’m deleting Twitter
I’m going for recovery, I am going to tell my mom tonight, hope all of you stay somewhat safe
Love u oomfs

[Jake :P @Jakieypea]

I keep eating and eating and eating where the fuck is the disorder

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

SOMEONE GIVE ME NICOTINE OR ILL GO INSANE

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

@denjidenjun Hi

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

Healthy relationships are insane wdym I can show you my boobs without fearing that you’ll sexualise and assault me

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

@VoidinFlesh I get it a lot, sometimes I feel like my trauma was not severe enough because it caused “only” ptsd I WPULD NEVER TELL THAT TO SOMEONE ITS JUST MY INTERNAL THOUGHTS

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

prove yourself

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

Todays crashout: my ego was threatened and now I need to prove to everyone how I don’t need anyone and I am fine on my own. Why would I need someone? I can want, but not NEED. I don’t need anything! I am complete as I am, don’t call me that again

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

If you don’t want it then fuck off and leave me alone I don’t need anyone I survived things most people can’t imagine on my own I am capable of dealing with myself

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

Everyone deserves someone better than me. I am horrible why do you want me around?

[𝒵𝑀𝒪𝑅𝒜 ִֶָ. ..𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ🪽་༘ @zmorawrona]

The mother of Polish rice cake nation

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

I hate myself for freezing. I should’ve screamed, I should’ve ran, but I just lied there and cried from pain

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

Sometimes I randomly remember how severe my fear of failure actually is
When I had a big chance of failing a class I went into a stress induced psychotic episode
It made my grades worse so idk what kind of coping mechanism was that, 0/10

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

My hospital stay is exactly in a week. I don’t want to go I’m scared. “If it’s not porphyria then I have no idea what it is” what if it’s not porphyria and they won’t find anything? And tell me it’s all in my head?
Also hospitals are lonely. I don’t want to feel it again

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

Everyone is against me so I should just die

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

it will happen something terrible will happen and everyone will leave me because they will all know I don’t know what they’ll know but they will and it will be horrible and everyone will die

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

Something horrible will happen today, I can feel it

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

I’m still not over this to everyone who saw my body checks do I look 50 kg I’m like 160-162 cm

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

My neurologist today guessed that my weight is 50kg. Should I kill myself

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

I hate my body I’m going to end it all

[vampire Akutagawa of shedtwt @fangedkc]

My neurologist today guessed that my weight is 50kg. Should I kill myself