i refuse to spend my life being closed off or emotionally unavailable as a result of the actions of others, i don't want anyone having that much control over my emotions, i wanna be open to feeling & experiencing as much as i can while i'm still here, even if it hurts sometimes
i think if there is one thing you must insist on being in this life, it is sincere. even at your expense. even at your own detriment. you just have to be sincere. there is no other way.
كُل ليلةٍ أدعو الله
وهذا هو العُكاز الوحيد، الذي أستندُ عليه في أيّامي. أمام كل مِحنة وضائقة
أنني أدعو الله، وهو يسمعني.
ولهذا، أرخيتُ يدي، واطمئنَّ قلبي، بأنَّ يدي ستعودُ ملئٰ، فعندي ربُّ غَنيُّ كَريم.
Sometimes your only closure is knowing you had good intentions and a genuine heart. Even in the silence, even through the hurt, you gave what you could and what you gave was real. Not every story ends with an explanation or a final conversation. Some simply fade and eventually, you have to let them. But you can still hold onto the truth: you were honest, you cared and you loved with good intentions. Sometimes that has to be enough.
Free yourself of all expectations and civilized concepts about love and relating to others. It only takes radical honesty and even more radical vulnerability and you too can have the strangest and most raw and unique relationships with people.