binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI

#edrtwt ༄ sw: 192lbs / 87kg ༄ cw: 170.2lbs / 77.2kg ༄ lw: 158lbs / 71.7kg

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

intro~

binky

dx ana nervosa (2022) -relapsing

nursing student 😭

he/him

sw: 192 lbs / 87 kg

gained everything back after recovering lol

[kawaii chud - $hedrtwt @kawaii_chud3]

"Im so fat and ugly" - your friend thats way thinner and prettier than you

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

when u lowkey need 7000 something cals to actually gain weight

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

so it turns out when u dont starve urself u have energy to be around your loved ones and get to spend time with them Without nearly instantly passing out

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

ok technically iam 172 but i didnt eat anything yesterday so im going to ignore it lol😭

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

i literally only ate a small packet of jelly that was 100 cal yesterday i know i didnt gain 2lbs😭

[kay @pxndapawz]

how it feels to be perpetually hungry and surrounded by people who are only hungry once a week

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

i dont want to bake with my mom and i feel guilty abt it but i lowkey hate her and want her to leave me alone

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

can i say that i fasted today if i ate 100 cals

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

my brain literally hurts girl what the fuck

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

those stupid food polls are making me hungry asf i was fine like the whole day😭

[lei ᥫ᭡ @leechi2_]

when i opened the fridge and saw my mom bought all my safe foods

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

@laniominous in my case after my bff started talking abt how low his intake was while i was just starting a weight loss journey of my own . it caused me to try to match his intake bc well he got skinny fast! and now im fully relapsed and it feels horrible

[selene ~ perfect and amazing ⊹ ࣪ ˖ @nbdcn37118]

how it feels being surrounded by people who care about your wellbeing during peak ed

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

i lowkey just stopped feeling hungry and my head started hurting instead so what ive learned is that i should keep going

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

im so scared she'll break up with me because i really truly do not want to get better yet. i need to at least be her weight :(

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

my gf loves me so much fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i said i wouldnt restrict starting yesterday but then i felt guilty and have been restricting so heavily :(

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

i didnt get to 10k steps on my outside walk but i can probably do them in my house 😊

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

on a 100 cal 10k steps kinda day

[binky (ᵔᴥᵔ) 🔞 MDNI @fatboymilk]

im so fucking mean and im NOT EVEN SKINNY