Sometimes you don't survive whole, you just survive in part. But the grandeur of life is that attempt. It's not about that solution. It is about being as fearless as one can, and behaving as beautifully as one can, under completely impossible circumstances.
—Toni Morrison
If you consider me in the way I wish to be considered without me telling you to consider me like that, we’re locked in for life. That’s what being seen truly is.
It’s always fun to throw people off with your duality. You can be mysterious but also honest about your lived experiences. Funny but strict. You can be multiple things at once. Life is more fun that way when you have a multidimensional and layered personality.
i know i come with a lot of intense energy which is why i go out of my way to properly gauge who is who, and to not force myself on ppl who aren’t equippied for the intricacies that make me who i am.
I think your life only really starts to change when your head and heart stop fighting each other. You accept what is happening without pretending to like it, admit what you actually feel without trying to make it sound nicer, and let all of you move in the same direction.
a regulated nervous system isn't quiet. it's responsive. it laughs loud in restaurants. it cries at commercials. it gets a full body chill from a song it hasn't heard in years. people mistake numbness for peace because numbness is easier to manage. but real peace has a pulse. it moves through you instead of around you.
If you want to change, you have to become conscious of your unconscious patterns. You have to catch yourself in the act of being the old self. And then you have to choose differently. Not once. A thousand times. Until the new choice becomes the new default.