I feel restless and stuck at the same time. Like I need to run, but I donβt know where. I canβt relax, I canβt focus, and I canβt escape my own thoughts. Even when Iβm around people, thereβs this distance,like Iβm physically there but mentally somewhere else, spiraling quietly.
And the worst part is the noise in my head. It doesnβt stop. It keeps telling me Iβm behind, Iβm failing, Iβm wasting time, Iβm not enough,and no matter how much I try to reason with it, it just gets louder.
Everything feels heavy in a way that doesnβt make sense. Even small things, replying to someone, getting out of bed, deciding what to eat,feel like Iβm dragging myself through mud.
I donβt think Iβm okayand Iβm tired of pretending I just need βa good nightβs sleepβ or a better routine. Itβs not that simple. It feels like my mind is constantly under attack from itself.