𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱

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𑣲 21 𝄞 erie/eri
chronically ill 𓈒 wlw
cw: 58.3kg

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

#edrtwt intro ⋆.𐙚 ̊ .ᐟ .ᐟ

⋆˚࿔ not new
⋆˚࿔ eri / erie, twenty-one
⋆˚࿔ sw: 65.1kg | cw: 54kg | gw: 42 kg |
⋆˚࿔ ugw: 38kg
⋆˚࿔ she/her, diagnosed bullimia nervosa

♡︎ / ↺ to be moots .ᐟ .ᐟ

(picture credits to pinterest! not mine!!)

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

just choosing to ignore the weight fluctuation rn, literally losing my mind
#chud #edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

fat mc fatass weighed herself and is back and is at 58.3kg somehow when she’s been eating 1200 or less!! time to starve the fuuuuuck out of myself !!!!!!!!!!!
#edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

somehow gained 4.2 lbs in 9 days, I’m fr gonna lose it please be water weight..
literally have been eating 1200 cals or less :(
guess I gotta lower intake again
#edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

cookiekingangelkpopwings on tiktok when i tell them vomiting and having your p*ke splash up in your face is not euphoric and doesn’t taste like sparkles and glitter

#edtt #edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

me when I can’t keep foods down and get so nauseated I have to puke to relieve the pain and nausea 😍😍😍😍

#help #edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

.. like thanks I guess??? but also invalidating cause it makes me wanna get smaller lol
but validating my chronic illness is great I guess

#edrtwt #chronicillness

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

they canceled my surgery to get my port replaced cause they managed to access it, was l up there 8 hours while they played phone tag with doctors like?? literally a waste of my damn time..

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

the bs “everyone with eds hate food” is crazy cause i love food i just hate the consequences and the calories. ill fuck up an order of fried rice or tiramisu tho (staying in budget ofc
#fat

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

@bbaangiz trying to lose atleast 5-10 lbs !!

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

update, they called me and moved my port surgery to next wednesday bruh..

#port #edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

me when my hr reaches 150-185 bpm the entire time im walking my 10 min 1,400 step walk 😍😍😍😍

had to stop cause my chest hurt, my oxygen is 94 rn 😂😂

#help #lockedin

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

went out with my friend and managed to still eat under 550 !! yay!
#edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

@aporcelainpetal thank you for the kindness <3 I hope so too I’m gonna try my best to handle everything before I can get fluids 🫶🏻

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

I haven’t had my iv fluids in almost 2 months and I’m genuinely suffering.. I feel so sick.
my port is messed up, tilted and extremely difficult to access, so I’m having to have it replaced surgically. no idea when, I’m gonna dread it so much :(

#edrtwt #heds #pots

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

hw, cw, ugw
according to a bmi calculator
#edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

I feel like I should have lost more by now
:( but I guess something is better than nothing..

#edrtwt

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

@mercurialhost maybe it’s cause my lips were thin, but yeah went from literally no top lip to having one

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

@bbyrexi hopefully 8+ I still have 35 to go

[𝑓𝑎𝑤𝑛 ໒꒱ @fawnesent]

I ate an average of 566 cals this week even with my maintenance day :O yay

#edrtwt