mulai menerima kenyataan kalo gue emang sekurang itu, nothing special, nothing be proud of me and not suitable for anyone. makanya ga heran selama, ini ga pernah ada yang bersyukur punya gue dan selalu sepelein tentang gue wkwk
💚 tw // su1cide men1ngg4l bund1r
akhir akhir ini sering banget mikir, kalo su1cide ga dosa, aku pasti udah pergi dari lama. i do really need a good words guys, cause i dont really have someone to talk:)
actually idk i dont feel any emotion at all, i'm not even sad nor angry. i can't believe that i will feel this way for a group that i've loved and stood by for almost 14 years.
OP: Let’s play the “of course” game
🍓: Okay!
OP: I’m recently learning how to bake desserts but it’s a lil ugly. If i do it for you, you will eat it right? 😭
🍓: (looking at the biscuit) it’s a lil ugly 😭 of course!
🍓: Hmm…you like 🍒 right? 🥰
OP: yes of course 😭
Maaf bu, its not gonna motivate me, it just making me more questioning my selfworth... how am i the useless person, stupid, not deserve this, its more good if im gone, why i can't think, why am i like dis, why.. why.. and thats my mind every fucking single day this year 12 month