methedup *_*

shedtwt drugtwt//
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absolutly confused and lost as of lately

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

I post bs that gets no reach and this is my funny ill internet diary so if u know me act like u dont

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

I csnt stomach anything cuz foods making me depressed for some reason

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Thought about shit with a sober mind and yk what. I will make it and acctually everything will be okay

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

I think i should get more comfortable w being alone again. I mean where ur homeless ur almost mever alone but the periods when u are are so depressing i just wanna cry rn, i wanna be held again by somebody as messed up as me.

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

I cant hangout w anyoneee. Either they are too stable and so than i feel bad about myself or they think im too much of a crackhead. Or than there are people in similiar situations as me but those always leave me after a few days cuz well theyre unstable so the whole thing is too

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

I hope my period doesnt come since ivr just been constantly messed up/restless and havent eaten much either at all

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Genuenky looks like a crack dam but its so comfy here. Its just nkw kinda scary cuz they left me here aline fir a while and since i havent slept for 2 nights im trying oretty hard to not psych myself out.

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Gimme some to get me high gimme some to get me druuunkkkkkkk @_@

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Smokib methff on my week old coughh hellyeah i be gettin freebies like crazyyy

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

@v_bleakly Yeah its going pretty well so i think i will be ^_^

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

I lowkey dont wanna off myself but it feels like the only option moving forward

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Slept at a free place for da homeless... i mean its only free for the first night but normally costs just 1,50. The only thing im scared bout is catching a disease or sum

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

I gotta pay 250 for not even stealing but covering a dude who was stealing ☹️ nobody here gives a fuck if ur homeless the cops were young aswell so idk like id genuenly have be a literal prostitute to get that much cash idk man hit me up for a bj i guess

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Like on some real shit ive tried a lot and idk i think imma spend 2 more weeks homeless and than jus do it

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Dudee i think imma off myself pretty soon

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Tonight was so horribld on the streets. So fucking cold and scary. Idk how my bf could fall asleep i just kept watch the whole night basically and thsn at 3am we left and moved to a shoppin centre/bus station whuch also sucked but a loooot less.

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

My moms been fucking insane i gen need some m3th action or vodka something stronf idc im shooting shit up if i have to

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Also my immune system or wtv must be si fucked cuz i got scars on my.legs from so long ago that still havent healed, theyre dirty like crazy but dont feel infected

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Im literally homeless and eat like once a day but im not losing weight atallll. Or idk maybe immm .... the faxt that we drink like crazy probabbly diesnt help lmao

[methedup *_* @fermentedfl3sh]

Long tkme no post ik but yesterday i took out my own IV and left the hospital which felt real tuff. Im also homeless and constantly on drugz but life hasent felt this real annd good in a long time. Also i got tg w the dude i ran away w and its pretty awesome

[naomiofSHITtwt @Naomidx0]

my scars when i’m cold