scribbles of a solipsist

welcome to my mimesis machine

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The purpose of this account is to create a record of my stream of consciousness

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in the end he didn't remember or didn't remember to say it but it's fine, I still believe

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Happiness swelled in me like an overripe watermelon

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The best thing I have is the purity of my dad’s love for me

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今天住在奶奶家，小时候在这里住过几年。一转眼，二十多年过去了，奶奶也已经在这里住了很长时间了。可以感觉到每寸墙，每块家具，甚至于地板里的每个缝都充满浓厚的记忆。今晚迫不得已盖着记忆的被子睡觉了

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I want to be a cat to the sun of her soul

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Too many goodbyes in this past week

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I guess I’ve lost her somatic radiance

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Somatically radiant

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Everywhere I look I see phantoms

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The certainty of loss is more tolerable than the uncertainty of ambiguous, unprecipitated hope

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我有好多想跟你说的，但为什么我看不清你的脸？

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A novel in a single touch. Quivering with the quietest quiescence of being.

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It’s over it’s over it’s over it’s over it’s over I’m free

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I already lost her so I have nothing left to lose

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Can we associate the psychological characteristics of a people with the shape of their foundational mythologies?

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Oblivion

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Afflicted by the morbidity of decadence

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You want a hometown so that you’ll be able to return to your childhood to recollect long lost memories

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下雨了，我又想你了

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The tears of one who has seen eternity but cannot capture it