Not to sound delusional, but please pray for grace. Life isn't really about hard work. It's more about meeting the right people, grace, mercy, and favour.
Next time you want to crash out, remember that Elijah wanted to die and the angel of the LORD told him to eat and take a nap. You should try that, It surely works.
1 Kings 19
@cessadelove1 Faith is trusting that seasons are not permanent. Where you are right now is not your final identity. It’s just preparation. The same God who sustains you in the field can elevate you into influence when the time is right.