so if you yearn for the vast sea,
know that the sky is wider and always be there.
but if you choose to swim don't look up to the stars,
i hope you'll be happy drowning and missing the stars.
the mention of him makes me
hate the reflection on the mirror.
the lips that you adore
sicken my throat to my stomach.
no matter how much you try to change me,
i will never fulfill your desire for him,
because i can never be him.
will never be him.
I'm not him.
If cards could read the future,
I would want to see it first.
And if I die tomorrow,
don’t waste your tears on grief.
Bury me in your memories,
cover me with the dirt of my love.
Because as the maggots
eat their way through my heart,
they will know
it only ever beat for you.