Idk what autistic person needs to hear this but alcohol doesn't give you "better social skills", it just numbs your fear of being seen. The feral, funnyn, sociable, unhinged and intense person you are while drunk is the real you. So what if you stopped relying on alcohol as a numbing agent for your fear of being seen, and started questioning why you have that fear in the first place
I want to play ff9 and ff7 but I'm already playing ff6, persona 4, and the adventures of Elliot not to mention 2 different platformers and 2 roguelikes for whenever I don't feel like dealing with a serious story