Strangeness Breathing

#BlackLivesMatter
Sink into the sea.
He/Him

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At work at work

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I make a mean keema with ground turkey that my mom used to make for us all the time, that's like my comfort food, you can use whatever ground meat but I still to this day use turkey and it's fucking fantastic

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People really sleep on turkey burgers, I can make a turkey burger that would make you wonder why you haven't had them more often. More affordable, tastes good, relatively more healthy than red meat. Like I keep like 5 ground turkey recipes in my back pocket at any moment.

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I will say, the one thing I do love about Richmond, specifically in the south side; hearing that train in the night every now and again. Genuinely soothing.

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I'm so stressed out I kinda wanna be drawn and quartered

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@the_maribari Nah we lost our orange boy Tahini in May (wouldve been 6 a week later), I watched him pass on the table as they euthanized him and it gives me some comfort that I was the last voice he heard, I'm sorry for your loss

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Made me unusually happy to see this

[SUDA51/須田剛一 @suda_51]

神谷さん！
Reunited with Hideki Kamiya @HidekiKamiya_X after such a long time!

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Closed before I could order

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Trying to keep myself together right now, but between a back injury and my mental health, it's an insane battle. Everything fucking hurts and I'm exhausted.

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Trying to get First Light tomorrow and maybe also Tomodachi Life... If I can't get First Light, I might look into Saros

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Yeah if my pulse stopped, I probably wouldn't fight it right now. I'm just tired.

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Anywho, time to repeat this day over where everything kinda sucks, but it's not so bad because I have a cool wife so everything kinda doesn't suck, but I still kinda wanna die

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Kinda think sometimes people want me to kill myself so I can finally shut the fuck up

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I don't even know if I'm missed by people or wanted by people and kinda don't know; dunno if putting the energy into figuring that out is even worth it. Guess I'm just sad in a way.

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I dunno man I'm annoyed. This was previously this week, had a moment today with something vaguely similar but this post had nothing to do with that. I'm just kinda irritated and don't understand anything anymore and I'm trying to be open and understanding.

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I think I have a problem of deeply misreading situations, if I talk about traumatic stuff in my life and they relate with a different traumatic thing and I'm like oh yeah that reminds me of a traumatic thing also, and their like "??? I wasn't trying to do that."

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Like I'm actively correlating things with what a person is saying and now I feel like an asshole because I actually am listening and relating to things?

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Regardless of everything, the new meds (it helps greatly) there is an underlying doubt of humanity that kinda makes me want to end it but I can't and I won't let it win.

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I found a potential for my art l because I kinda just use black and white exclusively. Gonna save up for it, hopefully it's what I think it can be

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I wanna live but I kinda wanna die. Tell me how that works.