when people are suicidal it doesn’t matter what they are interested in or looking forward to.
Someone who was important to me did it a month before a big birthday and a week before Elden ring was released (he loved Bloodborn and had beat it 3x times). It doesn’t make a differenc
One time in high school all my friends were annoyed at me bc I wouldn’t stop cycling over this guy who ghosted me. So they amount themselves decided to give me the silent treatment. For days. We’d all go to lunch and they’d pretend I wasn’t there. The good old days.
{after spending hours with someone who i conversed earnestly with & referred to me as their friend} what if they hate me. what if i annoy them. what if they never want to see me again bc im so annoying & stupid & ugly & did everything wrong & said all the wrong things And