frustrating how i automatically psychoanalyze Everything ab myself like Hey i feel slightly jealous that my friend has a Closer friend. this means im insecure of my status in their life bc of my low self esteem & perceived unworthiness due to my mother ignoring me as a kid
brain keeps whispering evil things to me. to defeat this i will isolate myself and engage in negative behaviors until it resolves itself. this has never worked historically but surely it will work this time
feeling very bad don’t know what exactly is wrong could be the multiple disorders or the childhood trauma or the bad weather or the nutritional deficiencies or the lack of sleep or my hormones or the curses or my father or the loud noises or