Pernah sekali gw ngomong gini di depan bunda. Beliau ga jawab apa-apa cuman diem, terus ngusap-ngusap kepala sama rambut gw, tpi gw lihat mata dia berkaca kaca.
Malamnya, tanpa sengaja gw denger bunda nangis sesegukan pas lagi tahajud. Sejak saat itu gw ga pernah bahas itu lagi di depan beliau. Sebenernya salah satu alasan kenapa dulu gw bisa ngomong kayak gitu ya karena gw ngelihat sendiri trauma bunda diselingkuhin bokap. Itu ngebekas banget di kepala gw.
Jadi kalau sekarang orang bilang "lu gamau nikah ya?", sebenernya bukan gamau. Lebih tepatnya... gw takut. Takut gagal. Takut nyakitin orang yang gw sayang. Takut ngerasain atau bahkan ngulang luka yang pernah bunda rasain. Apalagi akhir-akhir ini isinya kasus cheating di pernikahan terus. It just... feels so scary to get married.
Dari lubuk hati yang paling dalem, gw juga pengen kok. Pengen punya keluarga yang hangat. Pengen jadi suami yang baik. Pengen jadi ayah yang hadir buat anak-anaknya. Pengen jadi laki-laki yang bikin rumah terasa aman, bukan jadi sumber luka.
Semoga kalau emang suatu hari nanti Allah ngasih kesempatan buat nikah, rasa takut ini pelan-pelan bisa kalah sama keberanian buat mencintai dengan cara yang benar.
18! Dapet cowok patriarki kalau ada duit masih bisa diatasi untuk menghindari trauma. Dapet cowok non patriarki tapi bokek, malah dapet trauma kemiskinan yg ga bisa dihindari.
Soobin is so funny for saying Kai speaks Chinese like a home shopping channel broadcast 😭😭😭😭😭
🐰 "has Kai's Chinese improved a lot lately?"
🐰 has it improved?
🐧 of course
🐰 then please say a word in Chinese
🐧 what was it?
🐧 actually I'm thinking...
🐰 ni hao ma~
🐧 (speaking in Chinese)
🐰 what is this, a home shopping channel?
🐧 HAHAHA 🤣
🐰 what is this?
🐰 what does it mean?
🐧 (speaking in Chinese)
🐰 "are you ready? are you ready?"
🐧 yeah
🐧 (speaking in Chinese)
🐧 I heard this expression is used for food? it seems to be something you say with a great reaction like "it's delicious" or something. I learned it though
🐰 but the way you spoke just now...
🐧 it sounded legit, right?
🐰 yeah, it sounded legit. it felt a bit like watching a Chinese broadcast
🐧 (speaking in Chinese)
🐰 oh~ it sounds legit but
🐧 (speaking in Chinese)
🐰 hey but the moment you said that, Chinese comments are pouring in like crazy. everyone must have been waiting for you to speak
🐧 (speaking in Chinese)
🐰 you're excited. oh~ wow! the comment section...
🐧 it seems it was excellent. it was pretty good, right? 👍
🐧 (speaking in Chinese)
"as a woman I have so much empathy for my mother, but as a daughter I have so much anger"
resonated deep to me karena memang hubungan ibu-anak perempuan memang kompleks sekali, rasa sayang, rasa marah, rasa ingin memperbaiki, rasa ingin pergi jauh.. tumpah ruah jadi satu
레드벨벳, 4년 만에 리얼리티
총 3부작으로 제작된 ‘레벨업 프로젝트 시즌6’는 오는 8월 14일 첫 방송을 시작으로 매주 금요일 오후 8시 Mnet과 웨이브에서 공개된다.
각 회차는 공개 일주일 뒤 레드벨벳 공식 유튜브 채널에서도 시청할 수 있다.
https://t.co/J3xN6nRjak
beomgyu was mentioned by click-b members!
🤍 have you heard that? a lot of people have said beomgyu from txt looks like oh jong hyuk
🗣️ i apologize to him. it wasn’t me who said that, please don’t take it to heart🙇🏻
👤 we’re big fans of txt and we’ve been following/watching their activities. we’ll continue to cheer them on diligently in the future
*click-b is boyband debuted in 1999!
guys seriously please never k!ll yourself bcs you'd never know that one day your ults from two different worlds would go overseas and filming a show together like
whatever show Kai filmed in China is gonna hit so hard when it comes out, like non-moa locals have been talking about seeing a “handsome celebrity” around beijing FOR DAYS this man has been going EVERYWHERE