( there's a laugh, cheeks brightening into a red shade as they looked back up at them )
. . . do you disagree that i'm a kitten? however, you will always have my attention and affection as well...
like i'm always so confident and proud and sure of who i am and then i look at you and ... i just turn into a ... a little kitten who wants attention and affection...
it's embarrassing...
what... if i'm ready but i just... don't know how to be confident around you... you like... look at me and i just... forget everything ever.
that sounds so silly... ugh. okay.
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⠀⠀⠀I feel like people see in a different light when I am probably 100x worse. But honestly? Until you’re ready and confident、 I can wait to hear it out.
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i've just been alone for so long...
ah, it's. . . it's nice being here and being around you and... you're just so... you.
( there's a soft laugh )
i've had feelings for awhile but... it was never the right time to bring them up, to express them, you know?
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⠀⠀⠀Then it is something you’ll have to overcome. I wouldn’t mind going through it with you but with how much you’re holding back cause of your family、 I believe you can do it.
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( there's a blink then a soft laugh, gaze shifting downward )
. . . i mean, it's risky. with my family and with our lives and with ... with my trauma, sure but... i can't spend my entire life hiding from what i want because my mother killed the person i loved, you know?
... if you don't feel the same way, it's fine... i know that. rejection just hurts... so if you don't feel the same way, i'd rather know now rather than later.