Iโve been missing who I am when Iโm in my element. I miss journalism, hosting, stepping onto a stage, and dressing up. Most of all, I miss taking the leadโand that quiet, effortless feeling of being seen and admired simply for existing as myself
I donโt fully understand the logic of why is that every single fight with Ian only makes me want to love him more and stay by his side. Instead of pulling us apart, resolving things with him just makes me want to be his forever.
Every timeโฆ
Every serious relationship Iโve been in ends with me being painted as the enemy. I donโt think Iโm annoying, but if it keeps happening, maybe I really am the problem.
Itโs so unclear if heโs just self-sabotaging and ruining the good thing he has right now (me), or if he just doesnโt care and Iโve been blindsided this whole time thinking he actually loves me
Then pag tinanong mo ang sasabihin or ng stand "you'll find someone better"โletche, ikaw nga ang gusto! Why can't you just be better? Why can't you be as brave as when you first flirted with me
Always about him what he feels and what heโs battling with. I validate everything he goes through and try my best to be understanding, but how about me? Tao rin naman ako! Bakit why always like this? Heโs not even curious about me anymore. Feels like a one-sided love.
Pag nag-express ka, magiging away. Pag naging away, ikaw pa rin mag-aayos kasi if you distance yourself, heโll distance himself too. Heโd rather lose you than win you back?