flimflam444

hi hi !!

20 / No DNI but I block freely 💖

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@KBDYD555 I used topical antibiotic ointment after I got my stitches to help with swelling. If they start to feel really sore, I recommend using an ice pack and generic pain relievers. I know mine are in a different area than yours, but those really helped me!

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@cas3c0re @nerdybunbunnnn They hurt like crazy 😭 I did it by accident once and omg never again

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Also my aunt came into the house while I was in the middle of said crushing in the kitchen and gave me a heart attack

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Throw back to when I was gonna attempt but crushing up the 100+ benadryl took too long and I gave up cause it was too much effort

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@toeticklr689 They healed pretty well cause I went to the hospital for stitches

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@thirstydyke no fr like its nice knowing i have them even tho i know I def shouldn't keep big red blaring temptation like 5 feet from my bed lol

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I bought like a ton of blades last month when I was convinced I was gonna relapse so hard and kms but then my life actually got better so now I have like 100+ blades in my room

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I am in my living room, tired, my jeans feel too tight, my sister is on the phone being loud as fuck, and my grandpa is eating toast and I can hear literally every time he chews. I want to throw up why am I in sensory super hell

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There is some sort of conspiracy to stop me from kms. Every time I make a plan and am fully prepped to do it, my life suddenly gets better. Its a very tumultuous cycle

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@ShawnShtwt40761 The bed looks like its smiling like ^_^ also yeesh that sucks 😭

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I keep getting the most babiest of beans and its driving me nuts. These hurt so much worse than just straight beans idk why but augghrbsjfbebdf they sting 😭😭

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I think i inhaled so much benadryl dust that it equaled 1 benadryl cause I dozed off at 5 and just woke up so thirsty that I was cupping faucet water into my mouth like an animal

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was gonna kms today but I am a big wimp and chose to crush up a ton of sleep medicine (literally like 4000mg) mix it with apple sauce to eat it like a child, but crushing it took forever and the constant inhalation of benadryl dust hurt my lungs so I gave up lol. Another day ig

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I took a break from cutting to watch tiktok and saw i just roke up and laughed really hard and slapped my leg and I hit my cuts it hurts so bad

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I got big plans for tomorrow #shtwt

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I got new blades coming in tomorrow and the house to myself on Sunday you know what that means

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Canceled my Amazon package of blades so I would feel better abt buying an $11 anime figure this has to be divine intervention or something

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found a eyeliner sharpener thing with one side unused you know what that means #shtwt

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I want to cut so bad its not even funny . I promised my grandpa I would stop but I cant stop thinking about it all the time it's killing me

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Highlight of my day: went to the doctors and they took my height and weight and I weigh way less than I thought I did. Hooray!