she fell first, and i fell harder:((
now my heart is pained,why does this emotional burden feel so heavy?why can't it be softer on my heart?i wanted to stay but didn't wanna be overwhelmed by the conflicts between us,but goodness,this is excruciating for my heart,i can't bear it
mostly,i could tell,i made him feel uncomfortable,he didn't understand me, and he was sort of holding it against me,i felt the urge to reassure him that i was like everybody else, just like everybody else,but really there wasn't much point, and i gave up the idea out of laziness
i realized then that a man who had lived only one day could easily live for a hundred years in prison. He would have enough memories to keep him from being bored"
-albert camus