karina ☆

pls dont mention or bring up my other acc.. i relapsed

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

leaving bmi 14s and slowly going back to normal weight made me realized something. i never got compliments when i was bmi 14. i was lifeless and dead. i started recovering and look, people tell me that "you look so happy now!" "you're filled with energy nowadays" and many more.

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@cerealncats thanks rizo :)

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

FUCKKK I JUST FINISHED A JAR OF PEANUT BUTTER. I WAS WATCHING A MOVIE AND I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE. I was eating it with crackers too. when will my day get any better

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@evynotpois0n really gotta start working on that, thank you :)

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

i look very overweight but imma just eat to get this thought away. eat your problems away guys 😁😁

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@evynotpois0n but wont it be better if i just loose the extra weight? i find it hard to control how i eat, because i end up restricting way too much

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@evynotpois0n my life was balanced back then. i could control myself, although i was very miserable. but i was yk.. I dont know how to put this to words, but i hope u get me. i struggle alot and i dont think i can continue it. maybe one day ill of course try again, when im ready.

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@evynotpois0n yeah :( i really dont think i wanna continue my recovery. its just making me more lazy. i was way more disciplined back the, maybe it was right that recovery doesnt work w/ everyone. idk where i went wrong, the first days of my recovery it was fine tf happened now

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@R0ses_andscars THANK YOUU

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

why am i so fat 😕... anyways this was so delicious 🥰🥰 fearfood faced today : rice & any fried food

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@evynotpois0n this is seriously me everytime when i get stressed out

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@orthoyaps @evynotpois0n thank you <33 your words help me alot, like seriously

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

i hate my life. im just a fucking bottomless pit. why can't i stop eating? im getting bigger, but not any better.

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@indigo_blueeer thank you. extreme hunger is seriously not for the weak 😕 ive been honoring it, but not constantly. there are days where i restrict and i end up eating everything then the cycle continues. its like im falling back again but in a different way. i restrict, binge, repeat.

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@evynotpois0n thank you evy. most cases, its really extreme hunger. im still prone to restricting, im trying day by day to avoid restriction. i adapted new hobbies but, i cant stop thinking about food. its so annoying :( i just end up eating

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

fuck im hungry and cravinf but im too lazy to move 😓 im so sleepy too

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@nanqji THANK YOUU

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

ive been working out, but in a healthy way. its not for compensation or compulsive. i eat a good amount of food everyday, more than the usual actually 🙂... im at a healthy bmi now and i made a huge change with myself. proud and loud

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@0chuumiyu thank you so much miyu :D

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@lainrotting THANK YOU

[karina ☆ @florell165722]

@mari_recovery okay now this is way too real.

[୨mari_recovery୧ @mari_recovery]

I eat something salty→i need to eat something sweet→i eat something sweet→i need to eat something salty

IT'S A NEVER ENDING CYCLE