ryan

!! edtwt !! 20 💐 pro recovery always! 🪐 attempting BED recov, binge free since 31/5/26 🌞 bmi 19s

[ryan @flossbug]

this year i'm going to get to my gw of 3 years okay MARK MY WORDS!!

[ryan @flossbug]

it's so cute how bus drivers wave at each other ☺️

[ryan @flossbug]

@0calnoino @iluvmichaelhall ^^ vigisom savesss me i second this

[ENIDNON @tiratart]

a strange fantasy
a small comic about being disordered
(1)

[vivi @mooncatvivi]

i hate how depression makes me feel so stupid for how i feel bc its like i am just Sad for no valid reason i feel so down so distraught so empty so loathsome yet if you asked me to pinpoint the exact reason they don’t seem Enough or justify the extent of why i feel this way

[ryan @flossbug]

I think I'm in a depressive episode

[ryan @flossbug]

i need to rewatch star trek tng it's so comforting

[ryan @flossbug]

literally everything i do to feel better makes me feel worse what the fuck

[ryan @flossbug]

i genuinely think i gotta find someone to buy w33d off. i think that'd fix me

[ryan @flossbug]

computer. how do i make myself feel better? quickest route, no cutting or binging or smoking or drinking or video games (none of those r working rn)

[ryan @flossbug]

my friend has been begging me to play fortnite all day but now i'm off work she decides it's the perfect time to go get stoned and stop replying to me

[ryan @flossbug]

holy shit?!! not only have i not gained in binge recov, i've actually lost a little?? and i weighed myself after breakfast too oh my god

[ryan @flossbug]

i just realised that when i'm doing well i engage in more restricting behaviours, but when i'm doing badly i overeat and don't exercise

[ryan @flossbug]

tmi sorry but one good thing about not taking my anti nausea meds is that i'm shitting! consistently! for the first time in months!!

[ryan @flossbug]

i love my coworkers sm

[ryan @flossbug]

me last night: crying about food and weight
me this morning: immediately eats 8 squares of chocolate and a yoghurt bowl

[ryan @flossbug]

I've had the same fucking goal weight for 2 years and it's so close but I can't fucking get it and I hate myself

[ryan @flossbug]

I'm having a very Mental Illness time at work today

[ryan @flossbug]

it's a billion degrees at work today even though it's freezing outside

[ryan @flossbug]

i ran out of anti nausea pills for my anxiety and the last couple days i've been terrified of puking lol