@kennystopthat reaaaal, i pinch and twist. i'm also chronic anemic so i sometimes js slam my legs or arms into stuff so i bruise and can press down on them
i js deserve anger and hate and rage and cruelty. i deserve isolation and a slow rot and suffering. at this point im js accepting where im at rn and embracing it. i will slowly decay away in my room. thats all theres left for me.