Just a little rant bcs im tired fr. But i love and truly enjoys what im doing bcs its my passion. Its just that no one really understands what im actually doing for work and im also struggling. Tgk i kerja cam fun2 je but behind the scenes there is struggles i dont show.
Need to angkat2 al these stuff while bringing my own bag filled with accessories and makeup, bottle and my costumes. X start show lagi o dah nak mengamuk ya, makeup cair terus 😭 and i always injured myself all the time.
Also my work is basically labour work most of the times. All these instruments berat ya. Angkat2 from the car in the parking lot to the venue. Naik turun lif, naik turun tangga. And the stamina u need to play bonang for 30 minutes. Everything is mentally and physically draining.
I love my job but damn the ratio of me working is like 13 days work and 1 day off.
It makes me feel a little messed up on my emotional health. I dont have much time to clean the house, take care of myself, regulate my feelings, dont even mention buying groceries.