i think about being a mom all the time. i just don't know if i'll ever find someone who makes me feel safe enough to take that leap. i wish women could have babies on their own.
I have to lose 20 pounds, clean my room, get a new job, be more outgoing, make more friends and change my wardrobe and fix my gut issues and stop sleeping late and get a masters and meal prep and stop being myself
i fear the hottest relationship dynamic is when a woman acts like a chaotic creature and the man finds it deeply amusing instead of spiritually exhausting
fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this