being in long distance right now with him makes me realize how poor i was treated, i feel so bad just thinking abt how he did me so wrong A lot of times, and still think he could change for me…. And Fuck, I still love him so fucking much.
it feels like it’s my soul that needs to he helped, cuz it’s affecting me physically, mentally, emotionally, I just don’t wanna be in this state of emotions no more, it’s terrifying
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This year had been so rough to me, nobody knows what I did, not even my friends my family, nobody, April2026 was the most depressing month i could’ve imagined to the point I almost commit (thankfully i didn’t)
This life is sad tho, people hate on u for no reason, u get problems that u shouldn’t have on the 1st place, u become insecure of your body, u hate ur face, ur never gonna be as pretty as u feel, and problems i dont wanna discuss
And it lwk triggered me rn, am I actually still alive, Like did I actually pursued it, cuz rn none of the things around me feels real, it’s like I’ve been floating around ever since that incident in april
she said I was on a bathtub, trying to end all of it, she could see how helpless I was, which scared me because, I was Actually on a bathtub crying, Thinking abt doing it, But I didn’t because I love to love, I love everyone even those who hurt me
2 months later I left the USA, went back to my country to study for college, I met my childhood friends again, And my Childhood friend told me about a nightmare she had on April