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writer, poet, not your bitch. trans woman and ōztōhuahicnīuhtli 🦊

[red @fournewtrees]

monequi nochipa timāquīxtiā in ōztōhuah!! 🦊

[red @fournewtrees]

I like some of the covers he's done of Christmas songs they're pretty good

currently the only Christmas album that I actually enjoy and own physically is the bright eyes one which is pretty good for what it is and I got it for like 10 bucks on vinyl lol

[red @fournewtrees]

John darnielle please do a mountain goats Christmas album this year I need an actually good Christmas album to listen to at the holidays

[red @fournewtrees]

@humanfranklin hi Franklin love your music thank you for your songs of passionate raw animal sex they have inspired me greatly

[Franklin Bruno @humanfranklin]

finally, someone sees it

[red @fournewtrees]

the nice thing with dope is that everytime you use it you get offered a choice. do u wanna get high and remind yourself that this world is worth staying around for? or would you like to make it all go dark right here right now? there's a dark irony there which I really appreciate

[red @fournewtrees]

there comes a point in your life when the only thing that stands a shot of keeping you alive is the fleeting, ethereal simmering shine of heroin, and, ladies and gentles, it is to such a point which I am quickly approaching like a shooting star smashing into some barren planet

[anomali @Anomali210830]

Sometimes, to get back to land
is the worst thing a person can do

[red @fournewtrees]

to be fair it doesn't really matter, I've made it pretty clear to the ppl I've been in love with, that they are like, close to my heart and always will be so it's not really the craziest leap that I might still be thinking abt someone and writing abt it lol

[red @fournewtrees]

it's so awkward to write poems abt ur exes cuz im like so incredibly proud of the blood I spilt on that page, rly been doing some of my best work yet but the possibility they may see it and know is so embarrassing lmao

[𝖺 @r5nv_]

never, ever in my life have i been this drained, felt this much pain in my heart, and been so confused on what to do

[red @fournewtrees]

"Our fucked up little family has taken on water
There's a leak in the bottom of the boat
I've taken up smoking; here's hoping
The poison eats holes in my throat"

-Cigarettes, John Darnielle 2004

[red @fournewtrees]

the idea of finding a perfectly preserved body from 60 thousand years ago and in his stomach is a bucket of kfc fried chicken

we miss you Peter. love ur new solo stuff but we miss you at tmg headquarters. absolute BOAT (bassist of all time)

[red @fournewtrees]

thinking abt the tmg banter where johns introducing tollund nan like "this is abt a body they found who was so well preserved they could tell his last meal"

then Peter goes "it was chicken"

and johns like "SHUT UP I WOULDNT HAVE WRITTEN THE SONG IF IT WAS CHICKEN"

an all timer

[red @fournewtrees]

this is a big reason why my sexual preferences changed over the past years cuz for a long time I just fucked to like, feel good. after I met a spiritual bond I was like damn. just raw instinctual intimacy, sexual in name only but not focused on pleasure, just love.. so much nicer

[red @fournewtrees]

the hardest thing for me when I lose someone honestly is that despite I'm not religious like at all I'm genuinely very spiritual when it comes to inter personal connections. there's some people I meet and immediately feel "the same god/energy/narrative/whatever made us"

[red @fournewtrees]

kinda sucks tho cuz you really doubt if that alignment will ever happen to you again. what if you've already met everyone that came from the same spiritual order as you and nothing worked? certainly something I think abt a lot

[red @fournewtrees]

it gets you into things you really should avoid and keeps you away from what you actually want. cannot imagine how much better off I'd be if those misplaced anxieties hadn't controlled so much of my 2025 and first half of 2026

[red @fournewtrees]

thinking about that line in for Denise Matthews that says "I am not afraid and that's what's wrong with me. I am not afraid when I should be." and like. not only is that hella relatable but the opposite just so much is too

[red @fournewtrees]

I was never afraid of repeatedly injecting dope into my veins everyday or of getting caught selling coke back when I had drug problems and yet somehow I had moments of just total fear of communication where even being around the sweetest love I knew terrified me