I don't want to be That Artist but GenAI has really made it obvious that a LOT of non-artists hate & resent us bc they feel like they "can't" make art (when the truth is worse: they won't, bc it's hard).
I first started to suspect this was the case when I was ~11.
if you find it hard to commit to dedicated practice and study because your brain refuses to work in an atmosphere of academic/utilitarian self-discipline, try studying cool art you like instead. the way you learn doesn't need to be confined to "proper" or traditional methods