I have many regrets from my college years:
The biggest one probably being my inability to sell out for my perceived goal.
From the time I was 5, all I wanted to do was play professional baseball.
In high school I trained hard. I had no direction, but the work ethic was there.
When I got to college, I had the work ethic.
But distractions and fear of being an outcast shadowed over any of the goals I really had.
For example: if I decided I didn’t want to go out so I could wake up and train the next day, the ripping from my teammates for not partying with them overcame the drive for me to be great
Perhaps it was that the desire to fit in was stronger than the desire for the goal
Don’t get me wrong: I’m grateful for every single experience I had in college. I learned more outside the classroom than I did while pursuing my degree.
I’m still great friends with a lot of the people I met there.
But the regret still sits with me, echoing in my head
“What if?”
What if I did ignore the distractions and did everything to maximize my physical capabilities?
What if I did truly realize how great my blessings were?
What if I could’ve had the direction I needed and a plan that allowed me to realize a seemingly impossible task?
I would think of what 5 year old me would say if he met the 21 year old version of me:
Saying I wanted one thing but not aligning the priorities necessary to get there
Or what my late grandfather would think, who was drafted by the Red Sox but never got the opportunity to fulfill his professional baseball career because of a military requirement
More than likely, they’d be disappointed and somewhat sad.
The current pursuit in making other players better is the closest I will come to making up lost time.
Giving my all to others who still have the opportunity to take the reins of the controllable in their career.
The reason I say this is to make sure that if you’re a player reading this, make sure you know EXACTLY what you want.
If it’s to have a kickass 4 years and build a resume of great relationships and experiences, that is 100 percent ok.
I elected that path without even really knowing it
But if you are not already on a fast track to professional baseball and REALLY know that is what you want, just understand you may sacrifice relationships, status and mental headspace in the pursuit of that
The gain that will come from it will be different, but at least you can not sit here like me when it’s all said and done.
Filled with regret and a burning desire to erase the past with future actions.
2022 Sam Slodic 2B
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