friedtoad ♡ edtwt

relapsing |
21 ☆
height 5'3 ☆
sw: 132lbs ☆ lw: 100.1 ☆cw: 103.2lbs ☆ gw:85lbs ☆

pro-recovery ☆
fatphobia is gross

[j♡ ̆̈ •. @reidrexia]

santa better be putting a new lw under that christmas tree i stg

[ames 🌞 @amxdiem]

christmas spirit

[march @bulimarch]

i want to recover but I DON'T WANT TO GAIN WEIGHT.

[jen ౨ৎ @j3nnyst4r]

if christmas calories don't count then why do i feel so fucking guilty???

[friedtoad ♡ edtwt @friedtoad_]

Sometimes im like "yeah I have an eating disorder but I chose to cuz I wanted to lose weight" and now its christmas and im like "maybe I could eat normal for a day" nope no cant im tweaking out maybe this wasnt a decision I made

[friedtoad ♡ edtwt @friedtoad_]

Got a ninja creami ana desserts about to go so hard

[j♡ ̆̈ •. @reidrexia]

anything i gain over christmas i can lose again. anything i gain over christmas i can lose again. anything i gain over christmas i can lose again. anything i gain over christmas i can lose again. anything i gain over christmas i can lose again.

[mari ༉‧₊˚. @mari_makuyu]

I’m actually terrified of how many cals I’m going to end up eating over Christmas

[j♡ ̆̈ •. @reidrexia]

trying not to feel guilty for eating during the christmas period is like a dog repeatedly running into an electric fence to see if it’s still on

[claw ♪🧁 @fluffiezkitty]

happy binge-mas everyone

[vivi @mooncatvivi]

brain keeps whispering evil things to me. to defeat this i will isolate myself and engage in negative behaviors until it resolves itself. this has never worked historically but surely it will work this time

[Shana @cynicallycute]

💯

[mari ༉‧₊˚. @mari_makuyu]

I want to get better
I want to get worse
I want to get better
I want to get worse
I want to get better
I want to get worse
I want to get better
I want to get worse

IM STUCK IN THIS FUCKING CYCLE

[lili ♡ edtwt @h0neykolaa]

it’s never ending omfg