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my heart will be the worst blessing in your life @GimmickBots

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I don’t care what might happen…But, Zack…I want to end it with you. I want…to make you mine.

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What dismantled you—you bereft idiot—was not even the God who made the Ninth House, the Emperor All-Giving, the Kindly Prince; your end appeared in the form of a grown adult telling you that they might have liked you for their own.

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I want to lay on the train tracks with you
I want to tie you down the way that lovers do
In the morning, I’ll love the mangled bits of you
I’ll love you when your lips turn cornflower blue

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It’s silly, I know…Even in the middle of that, I was thinking I could repent for my sins with death.

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Louis seemed to be sealing…Some uncontrollable emotion…inside that “something”.

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But nevertheless, I was prepared to die
For that thing in your chest, fuck your money
I fantasize about those nights you held me down
And sewed your lips to mine

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...As for why I made that pledge, it's very simple. Rather than you from the past, or the distant future, I had chosen the you of tomorrow, who is within my reach. That's it.

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But like a drunken night, it's the best bits that are coloured in
You should look through some old photos
I adored you in every one of those

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BECAUSE IN ORDER TO BE LOVED I’M NOT ALLOWED TO MAKE MISTAKES.

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Ahh, that felt great. Aren’t I just a saint right now?

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So, in other words, I should just become someone you’re fond of. And, if I do that, you’ll forgive me, right?

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I said to you why, and you said, because I have only once met someone so utterly willing to burn for what they believed in, and I loved him on sight.

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I still see all the lines of surgery remnants, where you cut away, oh, left your flaws behind in the ether

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It's like we're a bunch of lonely people, testing the limit to see how much pain we can bear.

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You're going to die under the sun
And I'll be doomed to carry on
You have become like other men
But let me kiss you once again

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But I'm going to be here 'til forever
So just call when you're around.

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C is shorter than me. For some reason, I always thought he’d be the taller one out of us two.

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In all of his worst nightmares, she’s dying. She’s fading away in his arms, helpless and whimpering, while hot, dark blood spills over his fingers. This, he tells her. He doesn’t tell her that his hand holds the blade.

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I’d realized something. It’s too late once they’re taken away from you. If you want something, you have to bury it right away. So long as there’s a grave for it…It’s all mine…forever.

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For your birthday, I got you this ribbon. “We are born colorless,” he said, tying it around my collar. “It’s the people we meet who give us color.”