15 months ago, I sat on my bedside in Korea, alone with my thoughts.
I had been living throughout Seoul for about 2 years total at that time.
I had exceeded my own expectations, in both rank and lifestyle, yet I was inexplicably unfulfilled.
I must have sat there reflecting, ruminating, for over an hour.
I came to realize:
My life had become a cycle of aimless kr solo queue spam. Sleeping only after sunrise. No structure, nor social life. Yet I desperately clung to that comfort.
I realized this was limbo, going nowhere fast.
With this realization, came another:
Fulfillment would never find me from that comfort zone. To attain my desired fulfilment, I needed to actualize my competitive drive.
The genuine aspiration of winning worlds, as crazy as it sounds, has always been the driving factor for me. It’s lowkey where that wake up call came from, realizing then that I must return to NA.
Yet, my home town Surrey was out of the question. 50ms. In fact, that 5% of a second was what led me to leaving home in the first place.
So, That February 2025, I sent out more DMs than I ever have, of a hopeful return. Inevitably, one succeeded in leading me Back to NA.
I spawned in Mankato, Minnesota. 15ms. Cold as hell. A good landing point, though I just couldn’t stay. I needed more competitive energy.
Which led me here, towards Winthrop, and all the lifelong friends I’ve made so far from this small town in South Carolina.
With University life came highs and lows. Many great stories, to tell, and keep as fond memories. Many important lessons, to live by, and lead with in my esports dreams.
A primary lesson being the importance of structure and discipline. Two skills I shall focus on this summer. Both imperative in goal achievement, and thus, in attaining the fulfillment I’m after.
I can confidently say, the past 12 months here at Winthrop are the blessing of a lifetime. I couldn’t have dreamed up a better NA experience back in Feb 2025 if I tried.
For now, I’m off to Seoul once more. Shall I return after Summer, expect me to dominate in both Collegiate and Tier 2. Until Tier 1 comes calling.
Until then, I must first earn a worthy reputation. I’ve been a total wildcard ever since I found this game. It’s about time for me to level tf up.
As such, my summer goals are in proving just how dependable I can truly be - as a player, person, and teammate. And, showing just how skillful a midlaner I really am, up against the very best.
I vow to make our continent proud. North America is winning worlds. So long as my heart beats it is our destiny.
To All My North American friends, you know who you are. It’s been a great journey and honor getting to know each other this past year. I hope we meet again sooner rather than later, and better than ever before.
For now, you know where to find me:
I just played 43 games in a row.
I had only 28 minutes to win my last match before the PC blue screened itself…
…We lost in half that time.
Lesson in there.
#LessIsMore