I think once you touch enough money. Lose enough and make it back you just realize money is far from the most important thing in life. It will always be the motivation. But there really is so much more to life
Once you cut people out of your life, you need to become very comfortable with them talking bad and making things up about you. They will fill your silence and your absence with stories that make them feel better about losing access to you. People rarely take accountability when it's easier to paint you as the villain.