If you feel super fucking empty inside, like you can't even find yourself in your own life, then you need to step up your design game, and shift the nucleus of your designs from "4d other-people perceiving me anticipation of gaystatus" to FUN. I guarantee this will magnify the color in your life fairly rapidly, IF you have the nuts/balls for it. Most do not, and that's also partially why they are down bad, because they subconsciously know they are afraid to live. They know they being a bitch. They know their psychological optionality has collapsed down to virtually 0 due to fear, and they fucking hate themselves for that
Luckily it's not jover. You just need a new strategy
Step 1 - let go of all "shoulds". I "should" be at x point. I "should" be doing x,y,z. Fuck all of them. Hit the delete button.
Step 2 - ask yourself what DAY would be fun as fuck. Design your day. It all starts here. If you had a super fucking fun day, how would it look?
Step 3 - ask yourself "what would be a fun fucking way to make some cash". Bartending in dope city? Skydive lesson instrcuter? Nanny in off-grid hawaiin hill mansion? Ur own little info biz? What the fuck seems exciting?
Step 4 - actually go after it
The benefit of this small exercise is you've just designed a life with YOU included into it. If you hate ur shit rn, it's because there is no *you* in it. It's all what you think you SHOULD do, or how you think you SHOULD look.
Do you have the nuts to live for ur own enjoyment? Can you muster the internal strength to say "fuck their rulebook" & actually begin designing with a little fucking pep in your step? or do you need their ARHF ARHF ARHF sealclaps to not hate yourself, because you're afraid that you don't know who you are?
@DiffKnock watched a bit of tzolis; but he isn't of the technical elk of players we really need; reminds me of gyok+martinelli. WHY CANT WE GET FAST TECHNICAL PLAYERS
You must learn to see what others cannot, and then develop the ability to articulate it with such fidelity that neither the integrity of your vision nor the understanding of your audience is compromised.
Creativity often bears an uncomfortable resemblance to lunacy.
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