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falling & failing & over & over..
#edtwt 💕
h: 164cm ~ cw: ??kg ~ lw: 45kg ~ hw: 65kg \\ age: 28 (im too old to still have an ed wtf)

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genuinely just a wanna die

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woke up so fucking hungry but not gonna eat today

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@witheringfemme hey youuu how you doing? :)

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hey anyone on #edtwt wanna become friends? I'm so alone on here (⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ

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can't sleepy bc too hungry

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@nekoxnilla for me starving is just the way and just generally being active, I stopped counting calories a long time ago

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this year it's going to be 13 years I have an ed

wow.. I'm too old for this shit

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@astroweener yes but it's been so many years like idk what to do, angry doesn't even describe

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I still feel so fat

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only reason I do drgs is not to be hungry tbh

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seeing my ex with a skinner girl

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just took a whole blister of lorazepam and washed it down with a beer, hope I wont b here tomorrow

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i wanna binge so bad.. but I planned to do it next week and now I'm obsessing over the thought 😭

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walking dogs is like getting paid for burning calories

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@fawnerexia Im a dog sitter :)

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I wanna start having only dinner and fast during the day but I'm so scared of passing out or binging ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ

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feeling so light headed

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where I am now vs where I wanna be

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good morning!! 49kg!!