cmj ✨

dream in progress ☤ • future's gonna be okay 💜 • licensed MD Oct '24

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Will never get used to pronouncing a patient's death. My heart still hurts a bit everytime.

To Ma'am 8F, I know you're in a pain-free place now.

To her brother, you did everything for her, sir. Everything a brother should.

❤️‍🩹😔

[CardiovascularCorner @TrackYourHeart]

Name the structure?

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Yung crush ko nung grade 4, kinasal na todayyy 🥹 congrats, beh.

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

And a month after that, from duty ulit ako nung oral exam 🥲 bangag bangag na lang talaga.

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Naiiyak na ko. Sino nagpaulan ng admission and referrals? Tapos OSCE pa bukas. Pwede stop sandali 😭

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Self-care day bago sumabak ulit sa duty 💅🏻 2 weeks na lang, VL na 🥲

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

@callmepurple19 Congrats, doc! Good luck and God bless on your next chapter :)

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Grabe, ang lala. Ramdam ko ang pagod.

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

NAKAKAHIYA 😭 omg ka.

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Naiiyak na ko. Sino nagpaulan ng admission and referrals? Tapos OSCE pa bukas. Pwede stop sandali 😭

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

4 days na lang sweldo na ulit. Pero iiyak muna sa OSCE bago makuha ang swildo.

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Kakapit sa tatlong duty na lang, sesweldo na ulit 🥲

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Aga naman para sa revalida, doc. Wait lang puoh.

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

BAIAE lahat.

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

I miss fitting in my clothes.
Used to hate gaining weight during my boards szn.
Now I hate that I lost so much weight since the start of my residency.
Even my scrubs are loose. 😩

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Update, after 7 months:

Ang dami ko pa ring hindi alam.

May mga ugaling hindi ko maintindihan.

Every from-duty crying sessions.

Ang hirap hirap hirap. But I love my patients :(

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

aaa recently started residency and 💀

its been so long since my clinical exposure and now it scares me everyday 😭

parang lahat sila sobrang galing na tapos ako, ang dami kong hindi alam.

grateful sa seniors and batchies ko that always help out. 😭🫶🏻

IM, pls be good to me. 😭

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Kakapit sa tatlong duty na lang, sesweldo na ulit 🥲

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

Nurse: Ikaw ba duty, doc?
Me: No 🥲
Nurse: From ka?
Me: Yes 🥲
Nurse: Aww, so sad 🤣

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

my expired patient visited me in my dreams last night saying he's happy now 🥺 i hope his children gets to be happy too 😔

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

mama quoh bakit 3rd Sunday na ng feb agad agad 😭 teka lang naman po

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

aaa recently started residency and 💀

its been so long since my clinical exposure and now it scares me everyday 😭

parang lahat sila sobrang galing na tapos ako, ang dami kong hindi alam.

grateful sa seniors and batchies ko that always help out. 😭🫶🏻

IM, pls be good to me. 😭

[cmj ✨ @futuresgnnabeok]

wow surprised my scrubs from 3 years ago still fit me 😂 but sad coz that also means i don't get to buy new ones ☹️ hahahahaha