Darby

22 - i am full but feeling empty - americas favorite f4g

[Darby @futuriskey]

introduction number 1,739,838,827:

Darby - 22

dx: bipolar 2, ana-r, ARFID (😐)

kinda sw: 200lb-ish (counting this as my sw though I had a bout of recovery from Jan - June)

relapse cw: 140lbs

gw 1: 120lbs

no minors please… thank you 👍

[Darby @futuriskey]

It is hard to not yap about bullshit on here not related to my ed because I am so fucking lonely and have no one to talk to and haven’t in 2 fucking years 👍 but I just cruised a really cute guy I’ve actually wanted for a minute in the park by my new place yay #anythingispossible

[Darby @futuriskey]

I will not be weighing everyday because that will lead to my downfall fast…. Also will not be counting cals ((((for now))))))) because that will have the same effect. This method has worked wonders for me before because the less I think about this all the better / faster I lose

[Darby @futuriskey]

With the craziest curves you have ever seen. meaning I need to lose weight to squelch this issue. I don’t want to give twink by any means but the curves must. MUST. Go.. cannot take this anymore. I fully have grown the beard and normal pilled myself recently too to no avail #yay

[Darby @futuriskey]

My dysphoria has actually been so bad recently .. like the worst it’s been since before I transitioned in any way at like 10 bruh. I legit hate being a tranny so bad this is awful. #pain most definitley contributing to my relapse and my loneliness and choices in people I’m with -

[Darby @futuriskey]

attraction / community / hookup wise is def not helping because I am very much in my homosexual era right now though I’ve reached the point of just not bothering to label my sexuality atp #idgaf and I am reminded constantly I do not have. Certain facilities…. And I’m blessed-

[Darby @futuriskey]

@Skelijay Water pressure go crazy .. genuine flex …

[Darby @futuriskey]

@Skelijay Man my sink clogged as hell right now wtf 😭

[Darby @futuriskey]

@Skelijay 500 cheaper than my last 1 bed tho and bigger somehow so.. win I guess ? 👍😐

[Darby @futuriskey]

@Skelijay Mine is almost $1,300 usd 😂 1 bed shit plumbing , pretty much no hot water and they didn’t tell me any of this when I moved in like 2 weeks ago

[Darby @futuriskey]

since ive had this account for so long most of my mutuals are long gone and inactive so trying to find new moots.. 20 somethings of edtwt find me.....

tags: eedeetwt 3dtwt edtwt ricecaketwt
thinspo bodycheck bmi proana moothunt anatwt ana mia thin skinny

[Darby @futuriskey]

no high or anything no ''focus'' either just straight bullishit man... and i think i have tried every stimmy there is atp I only do them bc its just fun to partake in the act of drugs sometimes tbh LMAO this was a mistake last time but it was #pride in a different city.. love

[Darby @futuriskey]

ugh i wish st*m*lants werent fucking stupid because they do really suppress my appetite but they dont do anything else for me but keep me awake for days leading me 2 feel insane and make me clench my jaw so hard i end up biting my mouth till i have sores all over for weeks cool👍

[Darby @futuriskey]

rebranded the screen name btw was nawttt feeling tick anymore it was a reference to Priscilla Queen of the Desert

[Darby @futuriskey]

introduction number 1,739,838,827:

Darby - 22

dx: bipolar 2, ana-r, ARFID (😐)

kinda sw: 200lb-ish (counting this as my sw though I had a bout of recovery from Jan - June)

relapse cw: 140lbs

gw 1: 120lbs

no minors please… thank you 👍

[Darby @futuriskey]

My tl is so fucked after not being on here for months slop everywhere

[Darby @futuriskey]

Around 140 still which I can work with. Would love to keep gw #1 at 120 for now but going to take things slow so I can get back into things again I am so smart ughhhh yessssss fuck my chud life ❤️

[Darby @futuriskey]

hello twt long time no see 👍 I had a bout of normalcy in the eating world for a few months there which was shocking as so much evil shit happened lol. My closest family member died, I finished 2 terms in college after dropping out years ago, still no friends in my new state -

[Darby @futuriskey]

Had a major surgery, had to break my lease and move yet again because my neighbor was fucking nuts , turned 22, almost got addicted to m*th ?? Etc etc. now that things have evened out I smell a relapse !!! Just what this all calls for I fear. I weighed a few days ago and I’m -

[Darby @futuriskey]

Already lost 7 lbs since getting home god bless. (Most of that was likely water weight but whatever)!

[Darby @futuriskey]

@fossora_cals Idk how to even explain but it’s my favorite 😭 like berries / grape / white gummy?

[Darby @futuriskey]

Mmm breakfast ❤️