Funny how before I started my current antidepressants, I sat down with you and we went over the symptoms, you said you empathised and that you โwerenโt like thatโ when I asked if my side affects would bother you. Look where we are now
@2084Official@MibshaD Both. He raped me and I was critically malnourished, that little shit took my calcium so my teeth are damaged, absolutely had to go. I have no shame for culling that unwanted parasite
Thereโs no point in even trying to have a relationship with my mum-
I call her and on the rare occasion she answers, she isnโt engaged in the conversation, she ignores me when I try talk, sheโs distant and tries to educate me on things I definitely know about and she will refuse to accept sheโs wrong.
Sheโs always eager to get off the phone and canโt even get my name right.
It hurts when she doesnโt answer but it hurts worse being answered and then ignored and belittled.
I had more of a connection with the mean teachers in school. This has been a theme my entire life
I crave the relationship so bad but I shouldโve known it didnโt exist when she stopped caring for me a long time ago. But I was 8, I knew no better.
I donโt want to be a burden, but isnโt that what children are?
I donโt ask for anything off her unless Iโm genuinely out of options, and then Iโm never guaranteed to recieve it.
But sure mum, fish have 7 second memories and Iโm wrong beyond comprehension for saying youโre incorrect.