if anyone sees this: around what weight/ bmi did your hipbones start to become defined w/o posing or sucking or anything? especially if ur shorter!!
#edtwt#edrtwt
i think i did good with my eating yesterday..!
i ate a little more than i wanted to wdinner cause i drank soda and ate a rice krispy treat after but its way better than binging !
im scared for tmmrw tho because the only reason i can eat like this is bc im distracted with school
my deepest dirtiest fantasy is that someone will notice im struggling without me having to say it and they will offer me genuine concern that doesn't make me feel guilty or burdensome
i dont know why i even try
at this point its just best to focus on myself instead
i would be so much skinnier but at this point i think i have an addiction to food that i dont know how to get over
they hungout without me today since theres no school
im tryijg so hard to ignore it but my heart feels so heavy knowing that if i dont push myself they are perfectly fine leaving me behind
theres so many things i have to do for school i feel like crying im so tired😞
i dont even do anything when i get back home so its pretty much all my fault
but this is the first time in all 4 years of highschooo that ive had to ask for an extension im really disappointed