one of the worst parts about having body dysmorphia is the self loathing that comes with taking photos. You get so conscious about how you look that you end up refusing to document your life. You wind up erased from your own milestones
I'm not married but my mom once told me that you can marry the right person and still feel stuck. You can have a stable, faithful partner and still feel unfulfilled if you built your whole identity around being someoneโs wife instead of being your own person first.
Marriage benefits from a strong individual, it doesnโt create one. If you donโt know who you are, what you want, and how to stand on your own, marriage can quietly turn into a place where you shrink instead of grow. So donโt chase marriage like itโs the goal. Chase a life that already feels full so if you choose to marry, it adds to you, not becomes you.
I apologize if I donโt reach out anymore. My life is falling apart. Iโm sad almost every time, fighting for my life every day, second guessing my career path, tired from a job I donโt like, confused, and sleeping whenever I get free time just to escape reality.