lwk feeling evil what if I use my moms gun bc she'll feel forever guilty and my therapist has told her numerous times to put it up around me, I alr told her I don't trust myself numerous times, but like all things to her my feelings irrelevant because they don't involve her.
I'm gonna do some shit and not specify when or where so nobody can stop me and I don't want anyone to even think about trying, you want what's best for me? let me have this.
I genuinely don't remember anything from this time period NOTHING I cut everyone off I slept all the time I never left my room I wasn't eating I was constantly cutting and attempting regularly to od
what pisses me off is my best friend dying and me going into a depressive and psychosis episode for literal months and my "grandma" telling me "you knew it was going to happen stop moping" kill yourself genuinely kill yourself