eve

'you get sad, too sad, people can't get this sad, it's impossible to watch' || @ghomori_ || fuck off

[eve @ghostem_]

unreliable narrator bcs i perceive small things as a sign of abandonment and crash out over things that were never that serious

[eve @ghostem_]

he probably stopped wanting to be with me months before and only spent time with them because hes fucking one them

[eve @ghostem_]

bet they matter more than i ever did to him, bet hes with them all fucking day and night, so much that hes boosting their shitty server even tho its just them

[eve @ghostem_]

i know hes fucking one of them, i know i was replaced, why else would he do this to me

[eve @ghostem_]

replace me and be with them 24/7, pretend i never existed and pretend this isnt your fault

[tess♡ @veiledlace]

i still love him so much. it hurts so bad

[eve @ghostem_]

for your sake, i wish you never met me and im sorry you did, im a horrible person, i promise i loved you

[eve @ghostem_]

youre right being left meant more to me than our entire relationship, i barely remember what it was like being with you but you leaving will never leave me for the rest of my life

[eve @ghostem_]

i just wanted to be loved not abandoned

[eve @ghostem_]

my skin could be a graveyard of all the people i loved who arent with me anymore

[eve @ghostem_]

i might be insane but i always get the urge to carve the initials of people i loved who left me into myself because its like physical proof of how much theyve hurt me by leaving

[eve @ghostem_]

i want to disappear

[eve @ghostem_]

i know im unlovable, i know im replaceable, i know i dont matter

[eve @ghostem_]

forget finishing university, i just want it to be over

[eve @ghostem_]

i wish i could forget completely, when people leave thats all they are to me and everything before that doesnt feel real, i feel so disconnected from all of it, theres no point in being with anyone if its not forever

[eve @ghostem_]

youre fine, youre not bothered in the slightest, youre just happy with your stupid fucking friends who replaced me, you dont care, you never cared, i dont believe you

[eve @ghostem_]

youll forget eventually or find someone new and everything will have meant nothing

[Shablowsk @virtuallyself]

“big things coming” and it’s just my suicide

[eve @ghostem_]

im a fucking time bomb, each breakdown gets worse than the last and one of these days im gonna break down so bad my fear of doing it goes away for even a second and ill try, or im going to accidentally go too deep and need to ask someone to take me to hospital

[eve @ghostem_]

if youd rather just leave your partner the second theyre sad for a long period of time rather than being there, trying to fix your issue with it, simply spending some fucking time with them and reassuring them then you dont fucking love them, you didnt love me

[(˵◝ ⩊ ◜˵マ @meows4barks]

i get really sad thinking about how he’s probably so much happier without me