блять, почему у всех есть кто-то дороже меня? нет, не так. почему я просто не могу почувствовать, что ПРАВДА кому то нужна? почему я готова на всё ради людей, а никто не готов сделать что то ради меня? что со мной не так
prob delete later but
anyone else have this cycle of being paranoid you're not actually liked but you don't reach out to anyone cause you have nothing to say and don't want to say random stuff in fear they're annoyed so you just don't say anything and be left forgotten
i feel useless. i wish i could lay down and let someone else take care of me. to control my needs, to make sure i'm content. i'm so tired. i want to stop being cold, hungry, and exhausted all the time. i want a hug. i want much but i know i can't get it.
i wanna be kissed, rubbed, grabbed and hugged all day. i'm so affectionate. i like compliments and forehead kisses. open my door for me. ask me if I'm okay, do i wanna ride with you, take random pictures and videos cause you want memories of me in your phone. like LOVE ME!!!
I don’t think people understand what being touch-deprived actually feels like. It’s not just wanting a hug or someone to cuddle with. It’s missing the little things: being held, having someone rub your back, a random kiss, a hand resting on you, falling asleep next to someone, or simply feeling someone’s warmth and affection.
It’s wanting intimacy, affection, reassurance, and human connection without having to ask for it or feel like you’re begging for it.