Gillian🫀

just trying to be happy.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

May the bridges I burn..Light my way

[⊹ ࣪ pam ˖✦ @pamvonhadder]

😔

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

What am I doing

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

I’m not interested being the girl you can’t get over.
I want to be the reason you started to realized love is never meant to hurt.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

Prayers for the next girl

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

Bad day but I’m badder so idc

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

I just wanted him so badly, I wasn’t willing to acknowledge that I didn’t want to do that I didn’t like that and that’s my fault I’m the monster for that.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

But see I can acknowledge that maybe it was me… maybe I people pleased so hard when I meet him and wanted to give him everything that when it switched to I want to take this back and I don’t like this it all because I was never comfortable with any of it.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

I don’t want him back, but I can’t let go.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

I did in fact turn my heart to stone and no man will get that side of me again.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

How dare you doubt yourself after all you survived.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

There is no explanation that will make betrayal feel fair. There is only understanding that it wasn’t about you.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

God, if I’m meant to be alone please take away my desire to feel loved

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

I think I am more in love with what we could be in another incarnation, in another world, than what we are here and now.

It’s the fantasy tying me to you.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

No revenge because i worship a god that washed the feet of a man he knew he would betray him

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

Imagine betraying me, and constantly trying to hurt me without knowing that I pray to god that he protects you, makes your life less difficult and brings you mass amounts of joy.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

I will never hate the girl before or after me, but the one who knew about me and still went for it. I hope your teeth fall out

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

I wanted to be the one to heal him
I wanted to be the one to inspire him motivate him to be a better man
But I see now
I cannot reform the core of another person.

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

I went to god
You went to females lol

[Gillian🫀 @gibee__]

Something in me died this year and yet I’m more me than I’ve ever been